Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.
Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.
Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
I would love to share with you the very happy news that the baby we're expecting in early May is a GIRL! I could not be happier! She is healthy and thriving and kicking her mama from the inside like a good little fetus should. The ultrasound tech thinks she'll be born in late April rather than May, which is exactly what I was thinking. Like with Markus, I had the feeling from the beginning this baby would be a girl, so when it was confirmed, I just smiled and nodded. We can't wait to meet Markus' baby sister, who for now we'll call "K."
In other news, I finally started taking driving lessons. Living in the suburbs of NJ where nothing is less than a 20 minute walk is just not working out for the non-driving me. I'm happy to report I've taken 4 hours of lessons so far with a great instructor (who happens to be my age which cracks me up) and I've been practicing as much as I can. Which actually isn't much, since Raph gets home so late every night and it's always time to bathe Markus and put him to bed. But this past weekend I did something I never thought I'd do: I drove to Long Island. From New Jersey. Over bridges, and through tunnels, and on like 4 major highways! My friend was standing outside his house waiting for us when we got there and to see the look on his face when he saw me behind the wheel was awesome!
And then, I did another thing I never thought I'd do. I drove to my in-laws' apartment in Queens! Again, over bridges (skipped the tunnel this time), and then I parallel parked. By myself!
I am so proud of myself. I know I've bitched and moaned about not wanting to drive and being afraid many times. I'm really glad I was finally able to change my attitude about the whole thing and just get it done. I have my road test scheduled (I won't say the date because I'm superstitious and I don't want to jinx myself!) and I'll let you all know what happens.
Markus, in the hospital November 12, 2008 - the hospital released him from the NICU 2 days after he was born.
Markus at home November 10, 2009 - about to blow out his birthday candle.
What a difference a year makes! God bless you, Markus, and may you continue to grow healthy and strong. We love you!
The problem with LJ: We all think we are so close, but really we know nothing about one another. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.
Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.
I was so sad that many, ok most, of the old sites are gone. Every once in a while, I get nostalgic about the old days of BSB fandom, when all we could do was sit on message boards and talk about them, and collect pictures, and search for random bits of unreleased songs. All in the days before Google made it easy. I really miss those days.
Anyway, I think what I'm going to do is start saving any fic I read online that I love. I hate that many authors choose to completely remove their fic from the internet when they're done with the fandom. I've never understood it. I also can't contact these authors (I've tried; their email addresses are no longer valid).
I'm wondering, did anyone ever read Bobbi's Ta'Oth Trilogy back in the day? Anyone got a copy somewhere? I thought that was a great sci-fi BSB fic. Can't find it anywhere.
Ok, that was my cheesiness for the day. You may return to your regularly scheduled activities now! Thanks much!
ETA: Never mind. Found what I was looking for!
The leaves are falling, and they are beautiful. Fall is my favorite season. Can it still be my favorite when I feel like it's more of an abstraction, or a memory?
When will it start to feel like I belong here?
I did like the overall idea of the story. The vampires with a conscience, the instant, irresistible attraction between Edward and Bella, the young forbidden love aspect of it are all appealling. I feel like the story took forever to get started. The first 2/3 of the book were boring and painful, living in Bella's head. I found her to be rude, unfriendly, and unbelievable as a 17-year-old girl. She seemed bitter and jaded, as well as unlikeable. When finally the relationship with Edward began, I was so happy to have something to read about. I did enjoy their scenes, but my imagination had to fill in all the blanks I thought were left by the author.
If I didn't know Twilight was a series, I never would have expected or wanted a sequel. Especially given that I don't like the main character, I'm in no hurry to read more stories from her point of view.
This may be a case of the hype being too big for the book to live up to, but I'm not sure. I wasn't expected the writing itself to be so crappy, in conjunction with a strong dislike for the protagonist. At the very least I thought I'd enjoy a romantic story. However, this is one that barely scrapes an "average" score in my book, and I would never reread this book, let alone continue with the series.
These are troubling times. I'm sitting here watching the President make this announcement with my son and praying for Markus's sake...
Back off, seriously. :(
I'm totally freaked out that Michael Jackson and Billy Mays, both 50 years old, died suddenly within days of each other. My death phobia is in full effect; I've been anxious all weekend. I'm also disturbed that Michael Jackson's death and its ensuing media coverage has basically taken over the world. I was definitely shocked and saddened to hear of his death, and truly hope he rests in peace. But I really can't stand how the American media has a way of taking a story like this and covering it to the exclusion of all else. I mean, isn't Iran still in shambles after their election problems? Aren't our troops still sacrificing life and limb in the Middle East? Isn't anything else happening????
Not to mention Farrah Fawcett's death, not unexpected but still tragic after 3 years of suffering, has been all but forgotten despite the media's months-long vigil.
The Today Show just covered Michael Jackson's death and its aftermath (inquisition-style) for 20 minutes, and not a mention of Billy Mays' death in the top stories segment. I found out about it on the stupid crawl on the bottom of the screen.
Just now he was on The View, which since becoming a stay-at-home mom, I watch daily. I have to say that I was impressed with him. He was well-spoken, but he also seemed a little shy and sweet. Seems like he's doing a lot of good things, such as his work for children's music programs in schools. It was nice to see.
For my first Mother's Day, Raph and I are throwing a bbq for our immediate families. Our first in our new house! We had a bit of a setback when the awesome shiny new grill we bought could not be installed in the yard. It's a gas grill and there is an existing pipe that is currently connected to the old-ass nasty grill the prior owners left behind. We had a plumber come out to look at it, thinking it would be quick when done by a professional. However, the age of this house (50 years) strikes again - the pipe is way too small for the new grill and we would only get a tiny flame out of it if we hooked it up that way. They're going to have to dig under the house and in the ceiling of the basement to remove the old pipe and install a new one. Estimated cost is $500-600. Yikes.
So we bought a small grill For $70 to use today. We figure it'll be good for tailgating or taking to parks and stuff later on. At least the bbq is saved! From a food perspective, anyway.
Have a great day, mommies!
We had an interesting day. It rained all day on and off. We took Markus to the city with us, where I went to my neurologist (everything looks GREAT!) and then we stopped by Raph's job and my former office to visit. Everyone mooned over Markus and he was such a good baby. He was very happy and cheerful, and flirted with all the ladies. More than one of them wanted to take him home! I was not about to allow that, though!
Then we had a late, late lunch with my mom before taking Markus to HER office, where we showed him off to all the secretaries and my dad got to give him kisses between patients.
Really, we had a great day. Tonight we're staying in and having a light dinner and bottle of wine after Markus goes to sleep.
I am still so in love with my husband and my son. Happy, happy! :)
It's also the anniversary of the day I found out I was pregnant with Markus! I came home from work barely able to wait to take that pregnancy test. I can still remember the excitement when a second line came up! It was a Monday, and the previous Friday night Raph had told me he had a "feeling" I was pregnant. On Sunday, I had soreness in my abs, as if I'd done 10000 crunches (which, let's face it, I did not and would not do), a sensation which would be repeated several times throughout the pregnancy when my muscles were moving, making room for my growing uterus.
( Here's a picture of that very happy test )
( And a picture of the very, very happy result )
( Here's a picture from his first Giants game with daddy )
Thanks also for the birthday wishes. It was super low-key...I spent the day mostly with Markus and my mom in the morning while Raph slept in. He's been taking the night shift, bless him, so we're extra nice to him in the mornings. In the evening we watched Top Chef for a couple of hours. The most birthday-like I felt was when my mom brought me a bunch of balloons. No gifts or cards this year - who has time, and with Markus arriving a little over a week before my birthday, who needs more? :)
Markus was born 2 days later via c-section. The birth experience was an absolute nightmare that I won't go into now, because I don't want to spoil the joy that is my little boy. I love him more than I can say, and he is so, so perfect. We've been home since last Thursday, at my parents' home because our kitchen is being remodeled and we don't want the baby breathing in all that dust.
We are completely in love with this little boy and just sit there and watch him breathe. He is our firstborn, and is so special. There are no words to describe what I feel when I look at him. We are so happy! :)
( Baby Markus at 4 days old )